Shitty, crappy, handicap hand!

My hand didn't get better over night! The pain is worse and I can almost not use it. I can't manage to use any kind of force/strengths, so something as grabbing on or something is out of my way.

Everyday thing like brushing my teeth or to strap on my bra, was a hell of a striving. And I'm supposed to work as a waitress for 8 more days with this crappy hand? FML...

Has swelled up quite a bit...

Paintball Bitches!

Who said that I couldn't play Paintball with style?!

Straight from work and over to Paintball

And yeah, our team won ^^

Scuba diving

Since my brat stages, I have always been fascinated and loved going under water, especially looking for all the life and treasures in the ocean. So taking the diving certification, have always been in my "must-do-list" in life.

Last time I tried to take the certification was in Vietnam, but we didn't have enough time to complete the course. However, this time, I am going to complete it! I am going to Check it out of the list!

Before arriving Patong we have informed my mum's friend about my wish of the certification, so while she waited for us, she have looked up 3 schools in advance. Today we are going to visit and get some more information from each of them.

In the end, I decided to go for All 4 Diving Academy. They were the most expensive one, but compared to the other two, this had a more professional impression of what they are doing. The instructor at All 4 Diving, spoke fluent English, and he took his time to answer our questions and explained in details.

He informed that they for the moment have instructors who can English, Chinese, France and Spanish available, and they can offer the textbook in many different languages, such as English, Norwegian, Chinese, Japanese, German, French, Italian and Spanish. And even more if we want the digital version.

We can choose between a 3 days course or a 4 days course. The different is the among of theory you have to go through. With 3 days you get all theory all at once, with 4 days they divide it up so you don't get stuffed with too much information at once. 

They are in partnership/organization with PADI (Professional Association of Diving Instructors) who is the world's largest recreational diving membership and diver training organization. And they have their own swimming pool next to the venue for practices, so we don't need to travel to different places for theory and practice like the other two schools. 

The second school we visited had almost the same price, but lack of service and textbook. Despite the fact that school looked good, they didn't have the textbook in English and will take them 1-2 days to get a hold of one. The person we spoke to didn't give any interests to inform us, we had to dig out the answer out of her, and since her English wasn't good either, we had a little communication problem. 

The third school was super cheap, however the instructor couldn't speak English at all, and they didn't inform or show what partnership/organization they was part of. Skeptical. And bad communication already before we go down? Nope! No Thank You! Not gonna happen! 

So back to All 4 Diving, I choose the 3 days course, since I already have some experience from before. However if the instructor mean that I can not theory/practical good enough they won't let me try out in the ocean and I have to take one day extra for what I lack. I agree, with the terms.

With all signatures and payment done, I start next day with theory and video lecture from 0900-1500, and then going to the pool and try it out in practical. Then day 2 and 3, out to the sea, with 3 dives each day for practical. Between each dive we will practice 1-3 thing depend how quick I learn, after each dive I have to take a new theory test. For the trip out to the sea, they will come and pick me up at 0700 and we will be back at the hotel around 1800.

Since this is a important course for me, I didn't focus on taking pictures. So the only pictures I have of this whole course was when we was on the boat getting from A to B and back.

Morning

Afternoon

Evening

At the hair salon

Two layers, so when I get tired of long hair, just put it up in a pony-/rat tail and I have short hair again. 2 in 1 hair style <3

Cut and dyed.

Temtations

I am a weak person...

Realization

Yesterday my friend broke his Samsung Galaxy SIII by losing it down the toilet, and on it's way down, hit the edge of the toilet, which also lead to smashed screen.

After I died several times of oxygen deprivation from laughing, I promised to join him to the store and buy a new one.

However, I realized that I was going to be delayed, and send him a text; "gonna be late, give me 5 min, forgot to pack to school", and send.

Took me 5 seconds after sending that text... his phone doesn't work...
 ....thank you brain

Brain derp

Really brain?

There is Absolutely No need to tip your glass, when you drink from a straw.

Fuck you shit

Fuck your shit. Don’t mistake my confidence for arrogance.

If your dick was as big as my ego, you’d be inhuman.

And no bitch, I’m not bisexual.

My name is not important.

Go ahead and judge me, it won’t make a difference on who I already am.

Here are the basics.

• I’m a gamer. Hit me up 😉
• Fuck your morals. Don’t try and guilt-trip me.
• Fuck your beliefs. Don’t try and push shit on me.
• Fuck your friends. I don’t care if I embarrass you.
• Fuck your “originality”.

Fuck your cliches, your overused lines, your god damned photography.
Fuck your twisted sense of originality, fuck your lies. Fuck you, you self proclaimed celebrities.

Don’t tell me you’re famous, don’t tell me you’re original, because I can pick out about thousand other people on this socializing network who are just like you.

Don’t tell me to look at your photography, all it is and will ever be are pictures of the sky, sunset, and some flowers.

Don’t tell me to fucking look at your artwork, cause all it probably is is just just spraypaint, splatters and hearts.
I’ll look at your work if I want to, I’ll look at the people who make me gasp.

Fuck your overused self proclaimed celebrity originality status, you guys are all the same.
I’ll be the judge on who’s original and who’s originally fake.

I’m happy, and that’s all the matters.
I get along with boys one thousand percent better than I do with girls.

I actually do talk. I will always try to comment back.
Leave me your number, who knows you might actually get a call.

I am me, and that is the only thing I will ever amount to in this messed up world.
Not titles, no super power; just me.

The same me you’ve known for the past fourteen years, and the same me you will know for the rest of your god damned life.
I’m a rude girl who never learns, I’m entitled to my own opinion and you to yours.

Don’t try to fucking convert me, it won’t work. And if you think your sad small talk is going to win me over, think again.
I’m not sorry, I will never be, and that’s how I fucking am.

Don’t ask me to change, don’t bother changing for me, because honey all you will ever do is lose the little amount of respect I have for you and every other god damned human being on this planet.
But that being said, I am an actual human, with real feeling and real emotions.

I have the real capability to fall in love, to love, and to cherish. But after being trampled upon, I’m done, because I found out that no matter how much you try,
you always get kicked in the face in the end. So good luck honey, try.
Just try and start something, just try and try and try. Because who knows. Maybe I’ll end up actually enjoying your conversations.

Take my advice: Don’t get too close ♥

A phone call

He finally called! It's our first conversation since he left and I'm overjoyed.

The conversation wasn't long, but still, so happy ^^
I could finally talk to him \0/

The last time he tried to call, my cell phone didn't work at all
He could hear me, but I couldn't hear a thing.

I can't describe how happy I am now \^.^/
With him gone, I don't really have much close friends to talk to, or get support from, so That feeling when we talked and laughed, made me feel "whole" again.
It's like the empty space kinda vanished ^^ the stress and frustration isn't as heavy as before.

The conversation was nothing special, we talked like nothing has happened. He sounded so close... I really do miss hanging out with him...plz, come back soon.

Knausensenteret - After

Well then... I have been to the shrink

and... well... I don't know if he was of some help
everything he told me, I knew from before, so like I though, the whole thing, waste of time. He was OK, but far from good.

New appointment next week, maybe I will get something out of it then...
I doubt.

It's strange to sit there and talk about your stuff to a stranger and he sit there and act all that familiar with you like he do understand you. Do he really understand?

Don't feel comfy at all.
It's like he observe me like some kind of a extinct race or something. It's creepy, and it's make me feel like a psychopath.... which I'm not quite yet - LoL

Feeling empty

I don't really have something to say.
Nothing in mind and the day passed like that.
It's kinda lonely...

I spent the time with my amigo, we gamed, laughed and fooled around like usual.
But this time... I don't know...
I kinda feel empty, like it's only a shell who's remain of my soul.

It's not like I didn't had fun, for I did.
He is a good friend, someone who can make me feel valued, and whatever kind of situation he is always there for me.

Well... for the time being he hasn't ditched me in any ways yet.

And not least (!), he is honest and I mean really honest - he's not the type who goes around the bushes, and will not say something like "I understand you" or similar... really hate that phrase.

In situation I really have done something wrong or don't know what to do, he will say thing that I don't like to hear, but deep down I know he have right.
He is harsh and yet nice in his own way. He is himself, and that is something for itself - I like.

But somehow... today I didn't fully enjoy myself...
I know this have happened before, I kinda fall back to a empty shell. there everything is on auto gear, I respond, laugh, and I jokes to "the right times", but I'm still not present. My thought is like ".......", complete blank.

Some people will say that I'm depress. I have thought about it.
But what have I got to be depressed for?

The Girl Within

I define myself as heterosexual,

I'm nyctophilia, ceraunophilia and neutral to things that doesn't matter.

I love animals, I love gaming and I am a fan of Gothic stuff. But I'm also the kind of person who thinks Politics sucks.

I'm an obsessive, hyperactive and slightly insane - but it's a part of the charm.

I don't like to be judged, but I'm judgmental. It's called being a bit of a hypocrite. I also procrastinate too much.

I try to learn Chinese and Japanese but I am too lazy to study properly, so my learning is very sporadic.